If you really knew me.

You gave up, not me.

(Source: x-tammy, via dangerousl0ve)

dangerousl0ve:

Every time I think I’m going to stay happy, something fucks it up.

Promises me everything to me but once they are broken sorry means nothing

Drake

May 18, 2009

Oh this day, I wish I knew what to say
It’s your birthday, but it’s so much more.
It’s a day 3 years ago that we became friends, this day.
I wished you happy birthday on fb and you texted me.
After months of hatred came something so much more, best friends and then lovers.
I don’t know what to say to you on this very day, because there is no more us. Somewhere along the line we broke the trust we had, it’s sad, to think of everything we could have been. So tell me, what I should do? What we had destroyed me yet I still love you. I wish you could say the same, at least it would help take away the blame. But you can’t remember? Just like last September and December. Some how I became nothin to you, and you left but you took so much more. I was young and stupid but I did believe that you would ever leave. And now I cry every night hoping that everything will alright but this isn’t right. I shouldn’t feel this way about someone who wasn’t here to say. Every promise you made, got thrown away. Oh but you’ll say” I want to be friends, we promised we always would be”. So that’s the promise you want to keep? How about I promise I wont tell anyone or i promise I won’t break your heart. Or I’ll never just leave you, and I’ll never make you cry. why couldn’t you just keep those. I dont want a friend just so I can pretend like the pain I’m feeling isn’t real. I dont want the person who destroyed me to be the person who makes me feel better. I don’t want to here you still care because you don’t. Because if you did you wouldn’t have broken up with me over a text after 2 years and 8 months. Had enough? Well this is just the start, because I don’t want to remember you. Say I’m heartless say its unfair but all I see when I look at you is someone who isn’t there. That was my biggest fear remember? That you would just leave one day no explanation just a broken heart. ” but I won’t I promise, tay I’ll always love you forever and always “

So what can I say on this very day to a person that I love who doesn’t love me anymore? Happy birthday, hope you have a great day? I wish I could but I can’t, you see this day brings back every memory we ever had. I wish 3 years ago today, I walked away from my computer and looked away. Because you aren’t the worst person and I know you didn’t mean for this to happy, but you broke me. Because of you I’ll never be the same.

You.

It’s funny isn’t it?
All those lies you disguised as love
You made me float above the rest, oh how I felt so blessed.
But then again real eyes realize real lies.
You said you’d always be there, that you’d never leave.
But 3 years later we have yet to even speak.
You walked out of my life just like the rest, as if it was a test to see if I could survive and thrive without someone by my side.
And trust me I can, I’m stronger than you think i am but what kills me the most is that you turned out to be one of my most painful memories.
I trusted you, I wasn’t perfect but neither were you. You tossed me aside as if I was garbage. I hope it kills you some day to know you lost the one person that would do anything for you. I hope that next girl you meet is luckier than me. I hope you don’t fuck her over. Youre my biggest regret and oh how I wish I could forget, all the moments we spent together, because then maybe id be fine. I wish you were never mind I wish I said we could only be friends that one day on September 18 2009. I wish I said no. I wish I knew how fucked up you’d make me… I wish I could take back everything I said to you and I wish I didn’t love you. I wish you meant nothing to me like I mean nothing to you. I will never forgive you for what you did to me, I really hope you never try and come back, because I can promise you I won’t make the same mistake twice. So take your friends advice and move forward and don’t look back. Too bad unlike you, I didn’t break every promise I ever made, and for that I’ll be able to move on because I deserve someone who won’t just walk away. Congrats, you proved me right you’re just like my dad, I hope your happy.